I found this draft when I was cleaning up my old blog to create the new one. It was written at the beginning of the 2009-2010 school year.
One of the things that can be discovered about me pretty quickly, is that I have a lot of one-liners and quotes in my head. I use these to bring myself back into focus when I get blurred. I know that there are a lot of people out there who are annoyed by these one-liners and even a little annoyed by my use of them, and so I try not to use them often, but I have one that has frequently been running through my head these last few weeks.
“We often grow more by bending with the wind than by standing in rigid defiance.” J. Stephens
I’ve begun this new and exciting school year with a fresh optimism for the impact I might be able to have in the classroom. It promises to be a school year full of changes. Changes in the way I teach, changes in the administration in my school, changes in my own perceptions of the things that happen around me.
Because of the changes in the administration of my school, I’ve observed three categories of teachers at my school. There are those who are in a wait-and-see mode. I believe this is the bulk of the faculty. There are those who are standing by and ready to consider the new changes and what they mean to the kids – willingly implementing anything that works toward the improvement of our school and our students. Then there is a small group of those who are standing in rigid defiance . . .
The truth is, it is like this in any workplace. It is not reserved for schools. Anytime there is a “changing of the guard”, there are bound to be issues. Even within a classroom, we can see this effect.
I began my first year of teaching half-way through the school year. The person I replaced was a well-liked coach who had a much different teaching philosophy than I. My students divided into the same three groups I’ve witnessed recently. Some of them really seemed not to care about the fact that Mr. G was now Mrs. P. I would say this was a majority. Then there were those who were kind and helpful and tried to adapt to my style as quickly as they could, eagerly embracing the new way in which they were being taught. And yes, I had those who stood in rigid defiance. It became a battle of wills. Who was going to give in first? Well, it wasn’t going to be me – I had too much riding on actually keeping my job!
I can remember the day it all came to a climax. I had just handed back an test which none of my students in one of my classes had passed. I told them that obviously, I had neglected them in some way and that we were going to go through the unit again, in condensed fashion, so that we, together, could figure out what went wrong for them. One of the students stood up – apparently having been elected somehow to be the class spokesperson and said, “Mr. G wouldn’t have given us such a hard test – Mr. G wouldn’t have made us learn this!”
This had been a frequently heard mantra – Mr. G never made us do homework, Mr. G always gave us multiple choice, open book tests with two answer choices, Mr. G didn’t make us do this! I don’t know if any of this was true, but they certainly wanted me to believe it.
Can you guess my answer? “Do I look like Mr. G? Because if you think I do, then I might have to send you down to the nurse to get your eyes checked!” The class erupted in laughter and never did I hear “Mr. G . . .” again. Did they automatically stop rebelling? No, but the fact that I did not let them move me from my plan of action went a long way towards establishing respect from them and it went an even longer way towards establishing my own self-confidence.
What’s my point? The next time you find yourself saying things like “we’ve always done it this way” or “we never did it that way” or “Mrs. X had us do it this way”, remember . . .
Bend.